last few days

Tueday- SWITCHFOOT- ViceVerses

Wednesday- Andy and Evan- "most fun, running, ever"
Thursday- Mt. Isolation- Fog, sleet, overcoming- Matt H.

YES

"Burn in me, a fire that the world cannot contain"

broken and bewildered

NO idea how it came to this.  No idea If i love her or if I am even a good lover- when that's all I've ever wanted- i need to be back in my parents room watching the O.c.- is that the epitome of lame- or is that just me and my heart- a strange and wicked thing...
But I want to get back to Hoping- real, raw, expectant-
sex clouds my mind, media and my faults-
I see some friends living abundantly and wonder, how, and why?  When just a few years ago, i thought us untouchable, saving, the campus, swords drawn, hearts raised, waiting for our wives,  and now what have we...

God I am sick of it- i have made a mess of me- and the Lilac... i feel very shameful- I even feel like I have not seen her full beauty because I have been so preoccupied by my own  selfishness.

Remember the process- Remember to enjoy, to fight for love and learning to Love someone.  Remember to give more than you receive- remember-
No more pressure, no more expectation- Marriage is God's gift- keep it in view, in the corner- WHILE LOOKING AT THE CROSS!!

I cannot forget my friends, I cannot forget my God- let go of your heart, let go of your head...

Listen:
Augustana- 20yrs